One of my biggest fears for my children is that someday they will get hurt. No, I'm not talking about bumps and bruises. I'm talking about emotional pain. Because frankly, I think that kind of pain is WAY worse than physical.
At 29 years old (almost 30...eek!) I still can't seem to balance relationships perfectly to avoid hurt and pain. Deceit and lies. I know it sounds naive, but I thought that type of thing only happened when you were a child. But no, it clearly carries into adulthood, and it doesn't get any easier.
I remember a time not long ago, I was with Ethan at a birthday party. His "best friend" was there, but his best friend had another best friend who was also there, and the two of them were inseparable. I remember the sad look in Ethan's eyes as he experienced the saying "two is company, three is a crowd." My Ethan was the "three" in this scenario. It took everything in me to not swoop in and save the day. Doing that would serve him no good. This was just the tip of the iceberg when it came to the dynamics of relationships.
Just recently, I had a friendship that I thought was awesome come to a close. I was sad about it. I AM sad about it. But the more I hear, the more I am starting to realize that this is for the better. Doesn't make the pain any easier, or the desperation to know all the answers as to where it all went wrong.
Thankfully, as my children will learn and I already know, there will always be those relationships that remain loyal. For me, it's knowing that my parents, sister, husband, and a few close friends that I know will forever have my back despite my flaws and shortcomings.
Thank God for that.